"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
Recently someone asked me if I had asked for and received forgiveness from God for a specific sin in my life. As I sat there wanting to give her the "Christian" answer I realized that I had not truly forgiven myself for my sin and because of that I was still walking in this mentality that if I could forgive myself then I would be cleansed. That's not what the bible says.... and yet that's how I was and sadly am still trying to stop believing...
You see the truth is, it doesn't matter if I can forgive myself or not, all that matters is that I am walking in the complete understanding of God's word which declares that I am made righteous and forgiven if I confess my sins and believe that Christ died on the cross for that very sin that I am confessing.
Over the weekend I watched C.S. Lewis' Chronicles of Narnia and was once again reminded of just how powerful Jesus' death on the cross was and what a statement He was making by shedding His blood on my behalf.
For if the blood of bulls and goats and the ashes of a heifer, sprinkling the unclean, sanctifies for the purifying of the flesh, how much more shall the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered Himself without spot to God, cleanse your conscience from dead works to serve the living God? (Hebrews 9:13-14)
I am sure I will continue to have thoughts on this topic but for now...
This is my prayer...
Now may the God of peace who brought up our Lord Jesus from the dead, that great Shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of the everlasting covenant, make you complete in every good work to do His will, working in you what is well pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen. (Hebrews 13:20-21)