Lately I have been listening the lyrics of different songs more intently, trying to figure out what the person must have been going through when they wrote it and then how God has been able to use that persons words and talent to minister to others life. The following song came on while I was working this morning and I wanted to share it with whom ever actually reads these posts.

The song is called "Courage" and it is by Super Chick. It stood out to me because I can remember the years that I too felt the same feelings expressed in this song. It is about a girl that struggles with an eating disorder and can't help but cry and plead out to God for the courage to continue to fight against it. For most of my senior year and freshman year of college I struggled through this. It was some of the darkest nights of my life and I can remember thinking that I would never get to a point where I wouldn't struggle.

Today my life is a testimony of a girl that has relied on God's strength to change my life. To believe that God has made me beautiful and lovely. That I am his precious daughter and he takes great delight in me took time and I often have to remind myself these truths but I am being transformed by the renewing of my mind daily.

The lyrics are below and I highly recommend listening to this song on youtube. Even if you don't struggle with this I am sure someone you know does.

"Courage"

I told another lie today

And I got through this day

No one saw through my games

I know the right words to say

Like "I don't feel well," "I ate before I came"

Then someone tells me how good I look

And for a moment, for a moment I am happy

But when I'm alone, no one hears me cry

I need you to know

I'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be OK

Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful

The day I chose not to eat

What I do know is how I've changed my life forever

I know I should know better

There are days when I'm OK

And for a moment, for a moment I find hope

But there are days when I'm not OK

And I need your help

So I'm letting go

I need you to know

I'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be OK

Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own

These secrets are walls that keep us alone

I don't know when but I know now

Together we'll make it through somehow(together we'll make it through somehow)

I need you to knowI'm not through the night

Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light

I need you to know

That we'll be OK

Together we can make it through another day