Saturday, March 29, 2014

Embarking On Dream 1 of 10349

Why do I find it so compelling to express what I am thinking, feeling, or mulling over to the entire world on this blog. For the past few months I haven't written much, but that doesn't mean I haven't wanted too. Each time I sat down to write something, a still small voice would remind that it wasn't about trying to impress those that actually read what I write. The process of blogging has nothing to do with the reader, rather the writer. As self centered as that sounds I have found it to be true time and time again. I can't write to impress others, rather my writing has to come from a need to express how God is teaching me to walk about my faith. Once penned, the challenges and successes prove to be stones of remembrance for me. Things I can look back on for reference when the the storms get to intense to handle or the valley's too dull to catch my attention. 

Writing to me comes from a deep desire within to share my story. I have a picture hanging on my wall close to my front door reminding me that my story matters. Knowing that the experiences and thoughts that I have are important to share with others is key as I pursue writing my first book. I have been attempting to write my first book for years, but keep finding other things that take presentness. Back when I was living on the big island in Hawaii, I was a part of a writing class. Each week I had to write a chapter in my book and take it to a group of local writers for review. It was the most progress I have ever made towards achieving this dream. 

It is not that I don't want to achieve my dreams, I just keep putting other dreams in front of this major one. It is almost as if I am afraid that if I put a time frame on it I wont be satisfied with the result. I don't want to rush it so I just keep putting it off. I don't want to make a mistake so I sit back in fear, allowing the enemy to keep hold of my dream. Well, not any more. I am asking for accountability. I am going to commit to writing my book within the next 12 months. By this time next year I want to be at the point where I am figuring out how to publish my work, or at least a heck of a lot closer. If you are reading this, I need your help to propel me forward. Ask me, remind me, encourage me, and if you need to kick me in the right direction. Don't let me forget the things that I know God has put on my heart to accomplish. Hold me to a level greatness that I am I afraid to hold myself. I know I can do it and that fear is the only thing holding me back. 
For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. 
2 Timothy 1:7 NLTSo don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. Matt 10:31 NIVThis is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9 NLT
Grateful,
Brandy Thiesen

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