She found herself in an amazing community where she could really grow in and pursue her passions and as she did she grew in wisdom, stature, favor with God, and favor with Man. She really felt peace about being in this new place but there was one thing that started to bother her.
At night she would have this dream. The dream scared her and made her have such fear of being alone and making the wrong decision. As the weeks went by she kept having this dream and started to wonder when it would stop.
After seeking counsel from her wonderful one-on-one it was revealed to her through the Holy Spirit that the fear was stemming from a sense of being abandon or rejected. They prayed for several hours and many things were discussed.
Also, during the week she found herself having a hard time balancing spirit and truth. It was easier to lean towards truth because that was safe. Through her quiet times and prayer time with her one-on-one she realized that she was still struggling with accepting Jesus love for her and felt like she need to earn his love. It really was a hard realization because at the same time she was questioning what love really was. How could she love Jesus when all she knew was selfish love instead of selfless love? Who could help her with this question? Where could she look for her answer?
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